Kangana wrote about her experiences of growing up
Bollywood actress Kangana Ranaut, a social media abstainer, has debuted a blog on her official website. Kangana, who has until now restricted herself to descriptive snippets accompanying the photos posted on the website, yesterday posted a longer essay on written in third person but tracing her 27 years in the world. Kangana celebrated her 28th birthday yesterday. (Also Read: Kangana on 'Feeling Old,' Marriage and Possibly Playing Meena Kumari)
Titled 'Spring Child,' the presumably autobiographical essay identifies her experiences of life and self at various ages. At 16, she was 'trapped in a stranger's body'; at 19, the 'seed was bursting'; at 23, her 'honesty was endearing'; and at 27, she fell in love with herself.
Kangana, who told NDTV that she's 'feeling old' at 28, has gathered laurels for her performance in 2014's Queen and will next be seen in Tanu Weds Manu Returns this May.
Kangana's blog is reproduced below:
"At 16 she was just a girl who was trapped in a stranger's body, more often than not that body seemed possessed by alien forces like menstrual blood, cramps, stretch marks, acne, shameful desires and regretful deeds. Neither did she want that body nor that person.
At 19 the seed was bursting and an artist was trying to sprout from it, did it make it? Did it not? That seed might have not made it and many others after that didn't either but one seed eventually did, the price and the pain both were unbearable.
At 23 when she looked into the mirror she was faced with a bundle of contradictions, she contradicted herself but she didn't lie not even to herself. Her honesty was endearing and for the first time I liked her.
At 27 I 'd fallen madly and deeply in love with the mountain woman who speaks with clouds and butterflies.
I can't wait to grow old and meet her when her eyes will sparkle with wisdom and her voice will quiver with kindness and here another thought hits me, how much more time do I have with her?
Time is slipping from my hands just like sand does and I know one lifetime won't be enough for us.
Can I close my eyes and breath this beautiful spring day in and let it flow through my blood and make it a part of me? Can I stay in this moment for a little longer before 27 deserts me like a lost love affair and before 28 conquers me like a conquest."