Three days after losing 40 colleagues in a terror attack in Pulwama, many of the survivors of the CRPF convoy attended a routine meeting to be drilled for the job they do - saving lives. But for them, the trauma is far from over. "The body parts were flung 500 to 600 meters away," recalled Jasvinder Pal, who had helped recover several of the bodies. In the wreckage somewhere, was his friend Maninder Singh, he said, barely able to get the words out.